Hey, hope you’re doing ok. Try to look at how you felt over the week to see if this is working. We might need to just save one or two for when we fully drop off. Please keep trying. I know it’s kind of silly in some ways, because generally this is something that has been helpful with the only consequence being money. But you’ve gotta try for real being sober. Find out who that person is. I remember a person who was pretty happy, pretty cool, smart, still lazy, and not worried about what’s going to happen. You can get there again. You are Evan Lusky. You. Are. Evan. Lusky. think about that. The person you are. You’re stronger than this. You have a fucking awesome brain. You can do this. Break out the side of you that made it through boot camp. You were a person that went to a completely foreign country and just blended and relaxed. There are things to enjoy, and you’ll find them again. Fucking do it. Remember, your actions don’t have to match your feelings. Create a routine and follow it. Good luck. You probably feel like shit. Try to make good decisions about the code.
